Nothing Interesting today............:(

We just had this f***ngly hard quiz on logic.. And to make it worse everyone had problems in the classroom.. All of my friends were down in the dumps.. I listened to all of their problems and I was like..WHOA! First friend walked up to me and told me that he talked to his "EX" crush and was falling for her.. The thing is he has a GF and they're seeing each other for two years.. *sigh* Second friend fought with her BF coz she didn't ask permission to go out with a guyfriend. Her BF went berserk!! tsk tsk And the other was caught cheating in a quiz.. Ouch!! Well the day wasn't really how I planned it would be.. I didn't feel well for I only had 2 hours of sleep *again* and I had a strong migrane.. Despite the hindrances I tried to help my friends with their problems.. I told my friend who was confused to take this thing seriously for it may lead to a bloody mess.. I adviced talking to his "EX" crush and see what she really is before saying that she could have been better.. Don't avoid something that is unfinished for it might be too much too handle and one day explode with no warning.. Might end up losing his love for his GF and go with the other which is not really a nice thing to do..(I know what it feels like to be replaced) With the second friend, I told her that she should wait until her BF settles down.. Guys are born with jealousy.. Why?? It's in the genes and it has been inherited from our ancestors.. That is why guys have a bigger built to protect and repel any threat that approaches their points of interest Food, water, shelter, partner etc.. It's really up to her if she'll take my advice.. And well the one caught cheating...................uhmm I don't think it's really a good move to give advice with the kind of situation he's in so I kept my mouth shut.. AHHH!!! I was drained out to the point that I just wanted to experience another OBE. I was again deep inside my thoughts after giving advices and had alittle peace of mind which was very relaxing.. Ah yes everything goes with my imagination that is why I love being alone sometimes.. Not having to worry about anything and being able to do everything.. No wonder why I usually get bored with people talking about parties, girls, cars, or whatever physical topic that goes thru their head.. It's hard to find someone who finds it interesting to talk about abstract things. Things like emotions, ideas, opinions, or any weird topic that would lead to an endless talk of inspiration and insights.. Everyone can talk about......let's see.........a painting perhaps.. Just by looking at it wouldn't make that much of an impact as compared to feeling what the painter has gone through to come up with such a fine piece of art.. People may say the painting's weird or it has no inspiration at all blah blah blah.. What do they know about weird?? Weird is just a concept that was made by humans to describe other humans who think differently about this world.. Going beyond of what is normally seen is not weird.. Actually it's an ability to see thru the illusion of this physical world.. Seeing something that doesn't need to exist or feeling something that doesn't need to be physical is a rare and unique ability.. Overlooking a negative trait of a loved one requiers not to use your eyes but your heart.. This is called understanding.. Something that humans have neglected on doing.. That is why there are so many fights that are irrational.. Seeing and feeling with your heart is nothing special.. We are made to function that way for us to survive and live a life of happiness.. Going against this function would oppose our nature of being alive.. It's like using your phone to hammer down a nail.. Isn't that supposed to be a hammer's job?? Everyone has their own differences and that is what makes us unique from everyone else.. Differences should be guided by understanding, that way we can set aside our pride and be more compassionate on what others feel.. Isn't it good to have a listener by your side? But the sad thing is people see things with a shallow mind.. People are governed by the physical world they live in.. They think that if it's different then it doesn't fit.. To them difference means the opposite of things and that it wouldn't be appropriate to fit opposite things together.. Ok so take a look around then...... Why is it that gravity pulls us down, magnets stay together on opposite poles, electricity runs only along opposite charged poles.. Imagine these things inverting their roles: Gravity- we'll all float Magnets- the world would go off it's orbit since the sun acts like a giant magnet to keep it's orbit Electricity- charges won't attract each other, thus not having technology and we'll all live like cavemen.. These are just examples of what keeps the world on it's track I'm sure there are lots more..


Here I go again writing at the wee hours of the night.. I just love to write.. It feels like a channel that links my thoughts to this world.. I like sharing my thoughts to people who are interested and who understands whatever I write. It's like having a peep hole from my world to this world. Anyone who looks into it and finds it interesting can show me their own little world. And who knows, maybe there will be a bridge linking my world to another weird person and have unlimited visits..hehe
OKAAAAYYYY I'm talking gibberish now so post a comment if you want.. See the hyperlink that says comments? CLICK CLICK CLICK.. :D OH BTW guys, did you see the moon awhile ago?! It was freakin' huge and yellow! Just like cheese! Oh boy I just remembered.....I ate 4 slices of pizza today.. ARRGGGHHH!!! That would show on my belly!HAHA Gibberish again..errrr Felipe Medina Soriano Signing ooouuuuutttttttt...............*poof*

Ok another cool day

Here I am again writing like a girl.. I just love writing so why would I be conscious of it??hehe Ok the day didn't turn out right.. I slept for only an hour and I don't think that was a good nights rest.. Then came the dreaded math test..OH MY GOD!!! what kind of a test was that?! It's not like we're going to build a rocketship to go to Mars! Anyways I also had to do this project of mine which made me go back to UST to resize the stupid thing.. I was soooo tired and irritated and to top it all of, I had to pay 100 pesos for some driver who's a lousy cheater.... The meter was already at 40 pesos when I stepped in..shouldn't it be 30 pesos?? The driver ignored my question and I didn't want to go thru the hassle of looking for another taxi.. Anyways my irritation and fatigue went away with her talking to me on YM again.. Nice it's like that's the only thing that I'm looking forward to..actually no, it's not the only thing. It's relaxing and I feel happy when I talk with her so I don't see anything wrong with that.. I don't really know what made her stand out.. Her simplicity maybe.. Simplicity is one of the traits I look for in a girl which is why she caught my attention.. Ok ok so am I just infatuated?? Nope, I think I'm old enough to differentiate what infatuation is from real attraction.. I learned from my old experience and I don't think it is right to forget what you've learned.. Ok here goes the time again when my ex broke up with me..BLAH BLAH BLAH Ok here goes, people tell me that I should forgive and forget.. Wait wait what was that again?? I don't think that statement implies with me.. Let me revise from "Forgive and forget" to "Forgive and never forget".. Why not forget? Forgiving is letting go of the pain that a certain person has given you and start the relationship over again as friends or whatever goes thru your mind.. Forgiveness doesn't really mean that there is no damage done.. Anything that is deformed will never get it's form back unless melting it and molding it again.. let's say plastic or aluminum cans.. So in human terms it's like dying and being reincarnated again.. But seriously now! Let's whip back to reality! Forgiveness is just a patch....like a band aid to protect the wound.. but once the band aid is taken off then comes the scar.. Yes the wound is healed but it's form is not the same as before.. Wait wait, going back to forgetting.. Never forget any pain that a person has inflicted on you.. Why you say?? Then how will you learn if you keep on forgetting?? Makes sense eh? Forgetting is like running away from the lessons that life has given you.. People forget to say that they have forgiven the person but it doesn't go that way.. What if they encounter the same problem again and do the same thing that they did before? Isn't one experience of the same thing enough?? Would you want to experience the pain again? I don't think so.. Learn from it, forgive the person afterwards.. Give thanks..For experience is something money can't buy..

What the hell! It's like I'm writing a novel here.. anyways for those who will read this: enjoy and maybe you can learn a thing or two.. post comments or whatever criticism you can think of.. Anything goes, that is why I post these thoughts on the net to see what reactions I get from the readers.. bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye..............for now..:D

Morning Insights...........

Here I am pouring my thoughts on this blog.. Kinda mushy but a blog is like a diary except you post it on a website for everyone to feel what you feel.. I just had this thought in my head about the most mysterious emotion of all....love.. Yes love again.. Like I said before that love is not a game but a rule on how to treat your partner right.. I see people saying that love gives us pain and suffering, but on my opinion it doesn't. It's like breaking a rule in sports, once you break them it's annoying since you tried to follow every rule that the certain sport has implied. Simple things like the do's and don'ts of a game.. The same thing goes for love.. It's not just annoying but painful when you break a rule since you get immersed in the emotion. The game is life itself and love is just a rule.. How do you go thru life? These are the certain rules on different aspects of life: Career-concentration Friendship-sympathy Family-respect Relationships(love)-passion.. It's not hard to do the other things compared to love which is why it is harder to sustain.. How can you have passion without the drive to feel it? I mean if you don't really feel something for the person and you know that the relationship's not doing you any good then why pursue? And another issue is boredom.... People can feel if their partner's not putting enough effort on the relationship that they have built..

Here's what I think of relationships------------>



It is like knowing the blueprint of a building and only telling it to one person.. Then comes the building part where you share the troubles of knowing how to make it look like the blueprint.. The last part is how to maintain it, keeping it clean etc.. The blueprint is the conversation of what made you two interested with each other.. The building part is where you take your relationship to a higher level and hoping it would be finished with a unique ambience but still following the blueprint or the basics of how you two got attracted to each other.. How to maintain it is the hardest part since people are used to change.. They want everything to be like the first time.. Imagine eating spagetti for 3 years straight.. Wouldn't you go insane? Ok ok it's not like I'm saying that people should change partners every so often.. What I mean is that to maintain a relationship people should spice things up between their partner. It's like changing the interior of the building that two lovebirds have built.. Get the picture??? If one of them doesn't cooperate then it is obvious that the person concerned has given up and got bored of the relationship.. Passion to maintain the building....................It's hard but isn't that what people wanted to do in the first place? They want to experience love then live by the rules.. You can never skip nor go back.. Just go where the river takes you and wait until you reach the end.. Never expect...... For it might lead you to living a life of false hope.. It's just like a mirage in the middle of the dessert where you expect to drink from it and turns out that it was all in your imagination.. The more you expect the more it will fade.. And the time comes where you lose all hope and not have the power to go further which leads to blaming oneself and others for your mistake.. WOOT!!!!! I've been too engrossed in writing I didn't realize the time anyways hope that anyone who reads this would be inspired coz for me it did.............hehe weird inspiring my own self.....LOL HAHA

Why didn't I see it before??

What the f*** happened to me today?? I saw her but I didn't make a move to approach her.. Is it true that one should be cautious of what you say? I still remember when I told my ex that she's my first and last, and that I would never be able to recuperate if ever we broke up. Sheesh, we've broken up for almost two years now and I've already moved on. But why is it that when I like someone I tend to shy away? Is it about what I told her that she would be my last? I regret saying that......... I'm not desperate but I need to know who is the right girl for me.. I'll just accept the fact that I won't be able to find her, who ever she is.... The words that I regret on saying has disguised itself as my shyness. So now I won't even bother looking for someone else if that's the case.. I feel like a coward waiting for the right situation instead of manipulating the situation... Oh well I'll just wait..wait...wait....and wait......

Can I Sing??

The coolest thing just happened to me and my bestfriend today.. We were attending voice lessons like every other lessons we've gone to.. But today someone came up to us and proposed us a deal that one of us would sing in a studio for her new CD release. How cool is that?? We've just started like a month ago and now we'll be known in the UK? It's a tagalog album for Filipinoes in the UK, hopefully they'll like it if ever we sign the contract.... But I feel that something is still missing today and to make it worst I don't know what it is.. *sigh* I also got a chance to chat with her again but not too long and I think that made my day alittle colourful.:D

Back on Track

Whew, just started to write again.. It's been a long while since I got inspired again to write. Got to finish this book of mine and hopefully receive the criticisms for me to improve it. My story's not that great, but I think it would be interesting on those people who's imagination are way beyond compare. I guess it's too abstract to the point that I don't know if I'm the only one who understands it. And maybe....just maybe.. I'll start to hand it out to friends and people who are interested for me to see their reaction. It's just hard sometimes to go deep inside my thoughts for me to get my feelings into writing. It's like trying to go from this physical world to an abstract world and still be able to make people understand your world of fantasy.

What's with my shyness?!

Geez I saw her again and I was caught off guard.. Was daydreaming while walking..yes daydreaming..when suddenly I saw her.. Atleast I had the guts to look at her but my body was frozen. Will I ever have the courage to come up to her and introduce myself personally? I wouldn't want her to just wonder who she chats with and never show up to her personally.. Well the thing is that I didn't get much sleep *thanks to insomnia* and I wouldn't want to show my groggy face. Hopefully next week I'll be able to gather my thoughts and talk to her..