What a great day!!!!

Just watched 300 and it was the shit!!! I haven't seen a decent movie for a long time but today damn!!! It has something to do with Sparta and love.. This movie has taught me a very important lesson.. To never stop fighting no matter what shit people give you.. No matter how low the chances are to fight, it doesn't mean that one should give up.. I just can't describe how good I feel after watching that movie.. Actually it depends on the person if they like gorry stuffs with blood spilling and spraying all around.. It's a war movie what do you expect?? Anyways my day just started out fine and it was funny in a way.. I slept at 4 o'clock since I couldn't sleep of the excitment that happened while I was talking to her.. You know what it feels like when someone you like talks to you for a very long time.. ok ok, maybe it's weird but that's what I feel.. Afterall I'm weird so don't expect me to be normal..haha If the person makes you happy then why not feel the happiness?? So there it is I suddenly woke up doing something short of spectacular.. I was going in circles worrying that I was going to be late for the make up class.. I wasn't even looking at the time and when I checked it was still 11:30 and my class will start at 2:40.. Oh boy was I annoyed and dissappointed.. I got used to sleeping late and go histerical in the morning.. Time passed and it was dismissal time.. And the dreaded moment of my time happened to me.. If you guys read my post before about the girl who asked me for a date the day before valentines then you know who I'm going to talk about.. Anyways she asked me to go with her and I wanted to refuse but we were going the same route.. So I dragged along a friend to avoid the situation where we would be alone walking.. I hate it when girls do that.. No no I'm not saying that I'm good-looking to think that way.. I just don't know what makes them do that.. If ever they think I'm handsome or whatsoever then ok thanks, but for me it's just shallow.. I don't drag a pretty girl just to be with her and be her GF.. What the Fuck!!! Lemme describe the girls who do that.......GROTESQUE.. Yep that's the word.. They're deranged to say that they like a guy just coz of their physical attraction for the guy..geez The day goes on and I texted her on the way home.. My fatigue faded when she replied back.. I think she knows who I'm refering to with my posts..haha Hmmm....actually she might have a weird look on her face everytime I talk about her.. Like a "AHA! I got you!" face..HAHA Going back to my course of the day.. We went to Promenade to watch a movie and that was the movie I was talking about earlier.. I was observing the people in that mall and boy did I get sick.. They're all trying hard to be english speakers.. I saw a guy driving along the parking lot with the windows down and the music goes Boombs boombs kaboombs.. What are they trying to be?? Hip Hops? To hell with them.. And girls with mini skirts that would make my belt look longer.. Seriously! As if they are not wearing anything.. I prayed to whatever I believed in to please let not my future girl be like that.. Oh God I wouldn't want my girl to look like a sex symbol.. So you ask me if I got alittle excited with those get ups.. The answer is NO, not even alittle bit.. And to make something clear..I'm not gay and it doesn't mean that if I'm not interested in girls like a normal guy would be doesn't make me gay.. I just like to have a girl who'll be a stand out and be respected by the people around her.. Here's what I think a girl should be treated:
1. Always give them the attention they need nothing more nothing less
2. Make them feel special and loved
3. Handle them with care and respect
4. Always talk to her with passion
5. Look up to her with the love that you really feel for her
6. Don't make her feel rejected
7. Don't go to places that are reserved only after marriage(I think the readers know what I'm talking about)
8. ALWAYS I repeat, ALWAYS listen to her
9. Make her feel secure
10. Don't put her down as if she's a burden

Lemme put it this way: "La vida sin amor es un fuego sin passion" it says that Life without love is like a flame without passion.. do the above statements with passion not just by the heck of doing it.. that is if you really want to feel the "real" love that everyone dreams..


Sadly not alot of guys know this.. They think that doing something romantic will suffice.. It's not just by doing it.. you have to feel it.. And others just do it to the extremes.. I refer to guys who stalk too much and freak the girl with their so called "love".. I had this friend that was traumatized by this loser guy.. This friend of mine already has a BF and the loser guy fancied her.. Kept on giving notes and stuffs.. Until my friend's BF confronted the loser and warned him to back off.. You know what the loser said? "Eh kung hindi pa naman magpapakasal bakit naman hindi ko pwedeng makuha?" Wait let me calm down.. I might just blurt out every gross, rude, brutal, repugnant words that can be found in the dictionary........ There I'm ok now.. I mean what the fuck's wrong with this guy.. Ofcourse that's the period where you get to know your partner to be sure if they're the one.. Have you ever seen a decent relationship skip BF/GF relationship and go to marriage right away?? Damn, either this guy's desperate or he's just plain stupid.. I don't know.. If that ever happens to me......oh boy that would be a scene that should be censored.. These kinds of guys really feel what they say but remember they violated a rule..the first one that I wrote.. Always give them the attention they need nothing MORE nothing LESS.. just give them what they need don't exceed the limit.. Isn't it annoying if someone forces you to eat even when they know that you're full? What this desperate guy did was to give tooooooo much attention to the point that the girl freaked out.. Let's just say that she didn't have a BF.. It would scare the shit out of her.. My advice? Just leave alittle mystery.. Don't go drooling like a dog with rabies..everything in extremes are bad so don't exaggerate what you see on movies and books.. Don't be stupid that is why it's called a movie coz the situations are controlled.. and that goes to books aswell.. Life is not a controlled situation..it's random.. That is why shit happens.. The more you plan the more it'll not happen.. Just let it happen.. It's like what happened to me.. I didn't expect to like someone but then I saw her pass by.. Ever heard the phrase "it happens when you least expect it"? How would I know that a small, white, cute, girl with dark brown hair and colourful _ _ _ _ will show up? Ofcourse I got curious but I wasn't looking for her, it just so happens that I saw her.. And I wanted to know her so how would I do that if won't ask who she is? So don't think that I stalk her or anything like that.. How would you know someone when you don't even know they exist? And I know that she's deep after knowing her alittle.. She has this thoughts that would not be present on a normal so so girl.. If she understands me then she must be like me, looking at things beyond the physical.. She's weird I like weird people.. Weird but rational..She has her own little world and I got mine.. Usually people only have one world which is this world we see.. Knowing someone with two worlds is very rare..almost impossible to find actually.. If I was desperate for a GF then I would have had ten by now and go with the girl that was asking me out back on Valentines day.. Then I would be defying my own words..

BTW I've been facinated by the moon lately..dunno but it's really big and full of texture.. Wish it was cheese!!!HAHA I love cheese!!! Yep I'm a little rat.. no wait they smell bad.. Ok I'm a clean rat..haha And I just wondered how people eat rice.. I mean it doesn't taste good..it doesn't even have a taste to start with! I hate rice it only makes you fat and bloated with no taste and colour..hehe Just remembered..I haven't gone to the gym for a long time....ahhhh Anyways any suggestions will be most appreciated..:) Pepito, Pepe, Ipe, Flips has signed out....*pfoooot*

Almost perfect, but not yet!!!WOHOO!!!

How to start?? Ok so why am I happy today? Very happy actually!! Well I felt like shit when I woke up so I thought that this would be a gloomy day.. To start off, I had never seen alot of people so depressed.. All of my classmates feel shitty and I was no stand out.. But it all changed after lunch.. Jesus Christ!!! I was trying to see an oppurtunity to talk to her.. Was hoping real hard that the moments would make us meet so I can finally talk to her and be able to know what she really thinks of me.. Ok ok my friend told me that he saw her go to P Noval so I tried to stay there for awhile but no sign of her.. I just gave up and went to Plaza Calderon with my friends.. And guess who enters the gate?? It was ******, so I suddenly stood up and followed my friend that was going to buy siomai.. I was trying to gather up my thoughts on how to talk to her and be confident enough to be presentable.. So what happened when she passed?? You guessed it, another TORPEdo passed!HAHA I was holding a straw to look like I was buying something and just waved at her.. What happened to the "Gonna talk to her" plan?? Oh well so I was alittle disappointed coz I felt stupid and not courageous enough..*sigh* I don't know if my friend was joking around when he told me that she looked back two times or something.. Anywho I took this personality test in the guidance office so it took most of my afternoon time.. 566 questions!! what the hell!! So I came home and looked at her status in YM and she was offline so I didn't bother on looking at my computer that much.. Feeling all cramped up I just tried to relax with some yogurt and chocolates at the other room.. And when I came back....guess what?? She's online!!!WOHOOO ok ok i tried to arrange my thoughts and said hi and from that statement came a long long chat.. Actually started like 5 o'clock till 12.. ofcourse there are intervals but that's still a long chat!!haha So I can go up to her on Monday coz she doesn't (insert verb here) hint: what dogs do when they get mad at something..well I guess that's too much info but what the hey just figure it out.:p we played a game and I asked something in the end of our talk which was her (insert noun here) hint: it is infinite either way around..


Ok, so that's basically what happened to me today.. it's not really the exact feeling while writing it down.. Coz if it was, then I would be writing a real novel.haha but u know I feel sad when I know that she's sad.. I don't know why I had this thing that whenever I get close or talk to the person I am able to tell exactly what they feel.. To the girl that knows that I like her (it's obvious)haha do you really feel this way?? Like a wave that depends on the wind to shift her mood? Well it's like there was this person annoying the girl I like.. I know that it seems that as if I'm trying hard to be sympathetic but no.. Ofcourse I can't exactly explain what she feels in just a blog coz like I said before that emotions are abstract and cannot be physical.. ok you don't believe me? Try this: describe three things inside your room pen, desk, computer etc.. Now try to describe three emotions love, anger, happiness etc.. If you do can describe emotions I would like to see your description.. Post it as a comment.. Describing just one emotion is hard enough what more with mixed emotions just like what she feels? It's like the mixture of happiness and at the same time being pressured with alittle guilt.. Actually Sadness is just an illusion we make..It is a fake emotion.. Why you say? Simple, people are beings of love, compassion, and understanding.. These traits lead to happiness and can never dwell on sadness.. So why does sadness exists? Coz we made it exist.. We make our own problems and struggles in life.. We are the creators of our own mishaps.. Noone is to blame for what goes wrong.. Have you ever wondered that what we think is good will actually kill us someday? I mean we think that having nuclear weapons would make the country safer and stable.. Think the other way around.. What ever you build by physical means will destroy only of what is physical.. That is because we think and we seldom feel.. I think that I think this..that's pure BS! Feel what is good for you and not think about it.. Have you ever wondered why dreams occur during sleep? Coz it is when our thinking part of the brain is shut off and the emotional part is opened up.. Dreams are creative little scenes in your mind to make you feel what you really are.. Dreams talk to you and they talk by means of relation to this physical world.. What I'm trying to say here is that one should feel before you act and not think before you act..


Not to be weird but I know when she's sad and annoyed.. You know, hiding emotional pains by means of smiling is a nice way to show the people around you that nothing is of the trouble.. But your aura doesn't lie.. Emotions radiate and It depicts what you are thinking and feeling at the moment.. No matter how much you try to smile and act as if nothing's wrong, I can still sense it.. Nope, I'm not an alien but there are just some people that can see what others cannot..

By the way I think you know that I know that you know who the girl is in this blog..(confusing??)haha hmmm probably while reading this you have a small grin in your face..right?haha I've noticed, the girl here has been the inspiration for me to write this stuffs.. You know who you are..DUH!!!..HAHA

A very stressing dayyyyy.......

Just got home and damn was this day stressing.. I had to attend two PE classes for the exemption of the written exam.. One PE day is enough and I had to do two 4 hours of PE in the same day....*growl* And what's worse?? I saw her and when I was about to stand up to talk to her, I had a vertigo.. Talk about timing!! Maybe it's because of my lack of sleep..so today I'm going to sleep early so I won't have any reason for not talking to her tomorrow *if ever I see her* .. And now my friends have a nickname for me..TORPEdo..HAHA And one of them even said that a torpedo's better than me coz atleast they hit the target.. What a comment!!!HAHAHAHA Tomorrow will be the day, enough of this shyness I don't care what her friends will think of me.. Plus I have this feeling that she's getting uncomfortable when she sees me sooooo.. Anywho decision made and that's final.. Hopefully she won't feel akward with me approaching her..And please please no cramps..Everytime I get nervous I get cramps on my calves..ARGH! Hmmmm.....what else happened today...let's see.......Oh ya you guys know the band Lifehouse? I don't know but it catches my interest nowadays..wonder why..hehe I guess that's it and maybe I'll post something else later on...:D

Nothing Interesting today............:(

We just had this f***ngly hard quiz on logic.. And to make it worse everyone had problems in the classroom.. All of my friends were down in the dumps.. I listened to all of their problems and I was like..WHOA! First friend walked up to me and told me that he talked to his "EX" crush and was falling for her.. The thing is he has a GF and they're seeing each other for two years.. *sigh* Second friend fought with her BF coz she didn't ask permission to go out with a guyfriend. Her BF went berserk!! tsk tsk And the other was caught cheating in a quiz.. Ouch!! Well the day wasn't really how I planned it would be.. I didn't feel well for I only had 2 hours of sleep *again* and I had a strong migrane.. Despite the hindrances I tried to help my friends with their problems.. I told my friend who was confused to take this thing seriously for it may lead to a bloody mess.. I adviced talking to his "EX" crush and see what she really is before saying that she could have been better.. Don't avoid something that is unfinished for it might be too much too handle and one day explode with no warning.. Might end up losing his love for his GF and go with the other which is not really a nice thing to do..(I know what it feels like to be replaced) With the second friend, I told her that she should wait until her BF settles down.. Guys are born with jealousy.. Why?? It's in the genes and it has been inherited from our ancestors.. That is why guys have a bigger built to protect and repel any threat that approaches their points of interest Food, water, shelter, partner etc.. It's really up to her if she'll take my advice.. And well the one caught cheating...................uhmm I don't think it's really a good move to give advice with the kind of situation he's in so I kept my mouth shut.. AHHH!!! I was drained out to the point that I just wanted to experience another OBE. I was again deep inside my thoughts after giving advices and had alittle peace of mind which was very relaxing.. Ah yes everything goes with my imagination that is why I love being alone sometimes.. Not having to worry about anything and being able to do everything.. No wonder why I usually get bored with people talking about parties, girls, cars, or whatever physical topic that goes thru their head.. It's hard to find someone who finds it interesting to talk about abstract things. Things like emotions, ideas, opinions, or any weird topic that would lead to an endless talk of inspiration and insights.. Everyone can talk about......let's see.........a painting perhaps.. Just by looking at it wouldn't make that much of an impact as compared to feeling what the painter has gone through to come up with such a fine piece of art.. People may say the painting's weird or it has no inspiration at all blah blah blah.. What do they know about weird?? Weird is just a concept that was made by humans to describe other humans who think differently about this world.. Going beyond of what is normally seen is not weird.. Actually it's an ability to see thru the illusion of this physical world.. Seeing something that doesn't need to exist or feeling something that doesn't need to be physical is a rare and unique ability.. Overlooking a negative trait of a loved one requiers not to use your eyes but your heart.. This is called understanding.. Something that humans have neglected on doing.. That is why there are so many fights that are irrational.. Seeing and feeling with your heart is nothing special.. We are made to function that way for us to survive and live a life of happiness.. Going against this function would oppose our nature of being alive.. It's like using your phone to hammer down a nail.. Isn't that supposed to be a hammer's job?? Everyone has their own differences and that is what makes us unique from everyone else.. Differences should be guided by understanding, that way we can set aside our pride and be more compassionate on what others feel.. Isn't it good to have a listener by your side? But the sad thing is people see things with a shallow mind.. People are governed by the physical world they live in.. They think that if it's different then it doesn't fit.. To them difference means the opposite of things and that it wouldn't be appropriate to fit opposite things together.. Ok so take a look around then...... Why is it that gravity pulls us down, magnets stay together on opposite poles, electricity runs only along opposite charged poles.. Imagine these things inverting their roles: Gravity- we'll all float Magnets- the world would go off it's orbit since the sun acts like a giant magnet to keep it's orbit Electricity- charges won't attract each other, thus not having technology and we'll all live like cavemen.. These are just examples of what keeps the world on it's track I'm sure there are lots more..


Here I go again writing at the wee hours of the night.. I just love to write.. It feels like a channel that links my thoughts to this world.. I like sharing my thoughts to people who are interested and who understands whatever I write. It's like having a peep hole from my world to this world. Anyone who looks into it and finds it interesting can show me their own little world. And who knows, maybe there will be a bridge linking my world to another weird person and have unlimited visits..hehe
OKAAAAYYYY I'm talking gibberish now so post a comment if you want.. See the hyperlink that says comments? CLICK CLICK CLICK.. :D OH BTW guys, did you see the moon awhile ago?! It was freakin' huge and yellow! Just like cheese! Oh boy I just remembered.....I ate 4 slices of pizza today.. ARRGGGHHH!!! That would show on my belly!HAHA Gibberish again..errrr Felipe Medina Soriano Signing ooouuuuutttttttt...............*poof*

Ok another cool day

Here I am again writing like a girl.. I just love writing so why would I be conscious of it??hehe Ok the day didn't turn out right.. I slept for only an hour and I don't think that was a good nights rest.. Then came the dreaded math test..OH MY GOD!!! what kind of a test was that?! It's not like we're going to build a rocketship to go to Mars! Anyways I also had to do this project of mine which made me go back to UST to resize the stupid thing.. I was soooo tired and irritated and to top it all of, I had to pay 100 pesos for some driver who's a lousy cheater.... The meter was already at 40 pesos when I stepped in..shouldn't it be 30 pesos?? The driver ignored my question and I didn't want to go thru the hassle of looking for another taxi.. Anyways my irritation and fatigue went away with her talking to me on YM again.. Nice it's like that's the only thing that I'm looking forward to..actually no, it's not the only thing. It's relaxing and I feel happy when I talk with her so I don't see anything wrong with that.. I don't really know what made her stand out.. Her simplicity maybe.. Simplicity is one of the traits I look for in a girl which is why she caught my attention.. Ok ok so am I just infatuated?? Nope, I think I'm old enough to differentiate what infatuation is from real attraction.. I learned from my old experience and I don't think it is right to forget what you've learned.. Ok here goes the time again when my ex broke up with me..BLAH BLAH BLAH Ok here goes, people tell me that I should forgive and forget.. Wait wait what was that again?? I don't think that statement implies with me.. Let me revise from "Forgive and forget" to "Forgive and never forget".. Why not forget? Forgiving is letting go of the pain that a certain person has given you and start the relationship over again as friends or whatever goes thru your mind.. Forgiveness doesn't really mean that there is no damage done.. Anything that is deformed will never get it's form back unless melting it and molding it again.. let's say plastic or aluminum cans.. So in human terms it's like dying and being reincarnated again.. But seriously now! Let's whip back to reality! Forgiveness is just a patch....like a band aid to protect the wound.. but once the band aid is taken off then comes the scar.. Yes the wound is healed but it's form is not the same as before.. Wait wait, going back to forgetting.. Never forget any pain that a person has inflicted on you.. Why you say?? Then how will you learn if you keep on forgetting?? Makes sense eh? Forgetting is like running away from the lessons that life has given you.. People forget to say that they have forgiven the person but it doesn't go that way.. What if they encounter the same problem again and do the same thing that they did before? Isn't one experience of the same thing enough?? Would you want to experience the pain again? I don't think so.. Learn from it, forgive the person afterwards.. Give thanks..For experience is something money can't buy..

What the hell! It's like I'm writing a novel here.. anyways for those who will read this: enjoy and maybe you can learn a thing or two.. post comments or whatever criticism you can think of.. Anything goes, that is why I post these thoughts on the net to see what reactions I get from the readers.. bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye..............for now..:D

Morning Insights...........

Here I am pouring my thoughts on this blog.. Kinda mushy but a blog is like a diary except you post it on a website for everyone to feel what you feel.. I just had this thought in my head about the most mysterious emotion of all....love.. Yes love again.. Like I said before that love is not a game but a rule on how to treat your partner right.. I see people saying that love gives us pain and suffering, but on my opinion it doesn't. It's like breaking a rule in sports, once you break them it's annoying since you tried to follow every rule that the certain sport has implied. Simple things like the do's and don'ts of a game.. The same thing goes for love.. It's not just annoying but painful when you break a rule since you get immersed in the emotion. The game is life itself and love is just a rule.. How do you go thru life? These are the certain rules on different aspects of life: Career-concentration Friendship-sympathy Family-respect Relationships(love)-passion.. It's not hard to do the other things compared to love which is why it is harder to sustain.. How can you have passion without the drive to feel it? I mean if you don't really feel something for the person and you know that the relationship's not doing you any good then why pursue? And another issue is boredom.... People can feel if their partner's not putting enough effort on the relationship that they have built..

Here's what I think of relationships------------>



It is like knowing the blueprint of a building and only telling it to one person.. Then comes the building part where you share the troubles of knowing how to make it look like the blueprint.. The last part is how to maintain it, keeping it clean etc.. The blueprint is the conversation of what made you two interested with each other.. The building part is where you take your relationship to a higher level and hoping it would be finished with a unique ambience but still following the blueprint or the basics of how you two got attracted to each other.. How to maintain it is the hardest part since people are used to change.. They want everything to be like the first time.. Imagine eating spagetti for 3 years straight.. Wouldn't you go insane? Ok ok it's not like I'm saying that people should change partners every so often.. What I mean is that to maintain a relationship people should spice things up between their partner. It's like changing the interior of the building that two lovebirds have built.. Get the picture??? If one of them doesn't cooperate then it is obvious that the person concerned has given up and got bored of the relationship.. Passion to maintain the building....................It's hard but isn't that what people wanted to do in the first place? They want to experience love then live by the rules.. You can never skip nor go back.. Just go where the river takes you and wait until you reach the end.. Never expect...... For it might lead you to living a life of false hope.. It's just like a mirage in the middle of the dessert where you expect to drink from it and turns out that it was all in your imagination.. The more you expect the more it will fade.. And the time comes where you lose all hope and not have the power to go further which leads to blaming oneself and others for your mistake.. WOOT!!!!! I've been too engrossed in writing I didn't realize the time anyways hope that anyone who reads this would be inspired coz for me it did.............hehe weird inspiring my own self.....LOL HAHA

Why didn't I see it before??

What the f*** happened to me today?? I saw her but I didn't make a move to approach her.. Is it true that one should be cautious of what you say? I still remember when I told my ex that she's my first and last, and that I would never be able to recuperate if ever we broke up. Sheesh, we've broken up for almost two years now and I've already moved on. But why is it that when I like someone I tend to shy away? Is it about what I told her that she would be my last? I regret saying that......... I'm not desperate but I need to know who is the right girl for me.. I'll just accept the fact that I won't be able to find her, who ever she is.... The words that I regret on saying has disguised itself as my shyness. So now I won't even bother looking for someone else if that's the case.. I feel like a coward waiting for the right situation instead of manipulating the situation... Oh well I'll just wait..wait...wait....and wait......